Sunday, January 25, 2004
Things haven't been going well for me...for the past few days during new year,i've been feeling down n out w/o even knowing the reason why...well...things got worse apparantely...on the 2nd day of new year,friday,i was at my dad's fren's hm...me n a fren drank 2 cans of beer each coz he gave it to us knowing tat we were bored taking care of the kids...well...wad do u noe?I actually lost a recent close friend coz of it...i guess its her choice...i do not know why she is so against me drinking but to each their own beliefs i guess...to me,drinking is fine as a Christian as long as u noe ur limits n not get drunk which will stain the temple of God,our physical body...but thats not the end of my troubles...went to church today...realised how much trouble i've gotten a dear friend of mine into...she did not tell me anything abt it at all...making it seem like as if all was fine...but thank God for her cousin Kyna...if it wasn't for her,i wouldn't have known the extent of the scolding she had gotten...i do not know if she'll be reading this post...but i pray that she'll forgive me...i know it won't be easy...but i really hope you will...i know wad happened...i know the pressure your parents are giving you...i hope you will be filial n obey them...respect their decisions k?For my sake...please...i have not been a worthy friend,getting u into this mess...i hope the others will not look up to me as a role model for they do not know wad i really am like...i have caused u to fall into this needless dilema...its all my fault...i shouldn't have been to close to you...wad was i thinking?
You already have an awesome brother to take care of u...guess i'm being too selfish...guess its time for me to let go...i'm sorry Lala...i've disappointed you...
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