Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I'm broken. Yup.
Your reply to me...really left me there.
Mum was right...
If my love was really sincere, she'll feel it.
I was sincere, but not enough.
She's seen the way i treated you.
She said, its retribution, that she had seen it coming.
Not that we believe in retribution on karma...just that...
The way i've been treating you, one day, things will turn out this way for me.
Looking at how i've hurt you, avoided you, insulted you...
You're right.
To trust someone else than me, who's been causing you pain all this while.
You don't have to go through it ever again.
Guess i didn't manage to convince you that i'm different now.
Neither will you wanna stick around to find out...like you said...6mths later? 2 years later?
Why should you go through it again?
You're right...i just wanted...really wanted...to take care of you...to be that 1st and last.
My fairytale.
Your busy timetable, social life...leaves no more space for me.
Who i was wasn't what you wanted...but neither will who i am now ever stand a chance.
I waited...and i still will.
Time will help determine, who's right.
True.
I'm stubborn.
You left me for that was what you hated about me.
For now, i'll just carry on listening to our songs...those songs that brought us together and now, they'll accompany me.
I miss you Jac.
3:12 PM
