Monday, May 05, 2008
"Love isn't the rush of infatuation. that's how infatuation feels.
It isn't the demanding urges of lust: that is just lust. it isn't fireworks, or nausea, or fainting, or any of the things that i thought it would be.
It is a feeling that gently creeps its way around your body, and whispers in your ears, and tickles your back between your shoulder blades, and traces its finger across your palms, gently whispering the whole time until you just can't ignore it anymore:
"You love her"
It's a feeling that doesn't announce itself with trumpets or fanfare, it just nudges your lips into a smile, and that smile refuses to fade for a whole minute. it isn't all that time consuming, not every second of every minute of everyday. but it's often, and it's random, and it emerges like a plane trailing a banner across your mind, emblazoned with those words "you love her"
It's the tiny conversation with her that fizzes and sparkles constantly in the back of your head, about everything you see, and the need to share it all with her, and hear what she thinks. you want her to see what you see.
So i learned that love is not an explosion of drama. it idles up gently, and settles down beside you. and you may not even realise until you glance around and see it sitting back, comfortable and relaxed, as if it had been there all along."
Picked it up from a friend's recent post.
=)
Headed back to TP for lunch with miss fionehneh. Haha...twas great...at design entrance, bumped into Yi Jie talking to a freshie. For a moment i thought she was rae rae and smiled to her as i chatted with him...turns out, yeah, a freshie. -_-'''.
Had lunch at design...din have much of an appetite...heard abt what she knew during D&D. Yeah... apparantly its been said that i was there and asked Jac to come out to meet me and all... i dunno... once again, my side of the story remains with me... and only those closest to me will know what happened... just to clear things up a lil. I was NOT waiting outside, in fact, i was IN camp. Yup. And i had no idea how'd Tom hear abt anything when i merely asked for Gideon's number. Rumors. Hate em.
Met Val after that to do a lil grocery shopping...felt like such an uncle, walking back to TP while carrying a Prime shopping bag is so not glam.
Wanted to go for a massage but the guy was not ard...weird eh...since it wasn't even 6. Oh well...walked back home...along the way...saw a Pasar Malam...thought of the days when we'd savour all the nonsense food... and the time when you bought those plastic shoes. Memories.
Well...thats how i spent a day off...funny how when we were still together, whenever i'm off or having a break from army, when i wanted to spend it with her, she'd be busy. Now that we're not together anymore, obviously its outta the question. Well...ladies...here's a pointer if you're attached to an NS man. IF he has any free time, DO DO DO spend it with him? Really. It means the world to him, and it really shows that you've placed him before yourself.
Be it just watching him rest, spending the weekends lazing ard just doing nth or even following him out when he's with all the guys, he'll see, what you're doing for him. Maybe he just doesn't show that he does...but inside, every guy, wants to be loved. Hey, take it from me aite. I felt that way. =)
ANYWAY.
MISS CHEWY.
STOP BEING SAD.
4:55 PM
